The word of the day is Trust. I have been learning what is means.
For years I have known the Scripture, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” As a matter of fact, it is my life verse. The Lord knew that trust would be a challenge for me as I always try to figure things out.
I want to solve problems and help others with their problems.One of the issues with
helping other is that most of the time they don’t want help – they just want you to listen. The issue with trying to solve my own problems is that often I just mess things up worse than they were before.
Which brings me to the word Trust. God made it pretty clear that He wants me to trust Him and not myself. So then, why is it so difficult to do it? I have pondered this and I think it is rooted in pride. This is sad because it begs the question “What do I have to be proud of?” Did I create the world or set the stars in place? I am beginning to sound like the book of Job.
Why do I think I can do things without trusting in God?
When I broke my hip, I knew I would be healed, but then I wasn’t. Why was that? Was God unable to heal me? No, I knew he already had done it several times. I sat for two hours and begged for God to heal me. Later I was reminded of the Scripture, “I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor his seed begging bread. The operative word here was begging. I begged and I was afraid. Fear trumps faith every time.
After going to the hospital, meeting the doctors, being operated on and missing Christmas, I had time to think. I knew that I had missed the miracle but that I was being healed. The healing wasn’t caused by the docs, the nurses, the rehab people – it was caused by God. He is the healer.
I learned that it is important to trust God at all times and not give into fear. Doctors say things about your health that you can choose to agree with or turn to the only Healer and trust Him. He may send you to a doc. I know that people sometimes don’t get healed, like my husband, and I don’t pretend to know why, but I know that my desire is to put my trust in God.
Pastor said something the other day that grabbed me. God is really happy when you trust Him. I looked it up and there are many Scriptures that say He delights in us. I want to trust Him so much that He delights in me.
As to my hip, God is almost finished putting me back together. I walk without a cane almost all the time, unless I am going to the mall or taking a longer walk. I feel good as long as I don’t sit too long. I think that means I am to be up and around and not just vegging.
I am pondering the word Trust. I want it to be so present in my mind that when I try to figure something out without going to God first, I will be convicted and even more so, if I try to meddle in someone else’s issues.
Psalm 5:11-12 The Message (MSG)
11-12 But you’ll welcome us with open arms
when we run for cover to you.
Let the party last all night!
Stand guard over our celebration.
You are famous, God, for welcoming God-seekers,
for decking us out in delight.