"Count it all joy when you fall into various trials."

I Am a Child of God

Very intelligent, Troy lived in his head.  He felt that if he couldn’t figure it out, then it wasn’t real.  Faith?  He scoffed at it.  He didn’t need it.  He had it all together.  He loved research and his job.  He worked with concepts and could take an idea from beginning to end.  His mind worked like a computer.  He could win any argument and found few people that could provide a challenge to his conclusions and even fewer who were able to get him to re-work a solution.

Troy’s wife, Vera, was exasperated with him.  Even in questions of raising the children, he knew better than anyone else.  Their boys were entering the teen years and she was seeing them struggling with never being heard.  Their own creativity was stifled by his “father knows best” attitude.

Because of his increasing narcissism, he was no longer tender with her.  She called an attorney.  “He talks and talks and feels he is unimpeachable,” she told the divorce attorney.  “I want to be able to have an opinion and I want the children to develop their own ideas.”

When she announced her intentions to Troy, he exploded.  “I don’t understand.  We have just recently gotten out of debt.  The kids are only going to be here for a few more years.  We have it all.”  But Vera was done and she made it clear.

After leaving, she felt like she was lower than low.  She had no sense of self-worth and began to look for a new love with purpose.  She signed up for several internet sites and had a few ‘dates’ with men who had failed in their own marriages and each had a different set of issues than Troy.  But she was not interested in multiplying her problems.  She became increasingly isolated.

Her close friend, Lizzie, had changed so much recently that at times, Vera was puzzled by her.  She talked about Jesus as her new best friend and big brother.  It puzzled her.  Lizzie kept inviting her to come to a meeting of people that she called her new family.  Vera demurred.  She didn’t need to get involved with a bunch of Jesus ‘freaks” anymore than she needed a man in her life with issues.

Some of Troy’s judgemental, opinionated ways had rubbed off on her especially as it concerned religion.  She didn’t want to be weak and felt that moving in this direction would only add to her problems.

Lizzie didn’t push, but she was so different, in a good way, that Vera was drawn to spend more time with her.  Lizzie talked about something that she called the power of God.  Vera didn’t believe in God but if there was one, it would sure be nice if He had some power.

Eventually, the kids began to get out of control and she had no one to turn to.  Lizzie convinced Vera to meet with her Pastor.  She was really scared but when she met Sam, she liked him.  He had an easy smile and an engaging manner.  He didn’t tell her what to do and listened to her in a way no man had ever done.  He had a way of speaking into her life that felt like healing to her soul.  She could feel the stress fall away.  In the meeting, she found herself calling on the name of Jesus with her whole heart and faith filled her with hope.

But as in all stories, when things get better, something happens that rocks you.  For Vera, the doctor found a lump in her breast and they diagnosed it as cancer.  She fell apart.  One Tuesday night at the Fellowship Meeting, she asked for prayer.  The power of God fell on her in a way that shocked her.  She was laying on the floor.  She didn’t remember going down.  When she got up, she touched her breast and found that the lump was gone.  The doc confirmed the healing at her next appointment.

Vera had never before had an experience of the power of God.  She wasn’t expecting it.  Such peace and joy.  Everything changed.   Even the ways she was speaking to her boys was different and they were responding.

There is so much more to this story and it will go on for years .  There will be many chapters and many changes.  Vera will grow in the Lord and she will make mistakes.  The righteous fall seven times, but they get up.  The progressions are steady and she will learn to move from her soul life to Spirit-life.  She will get to know the great Almighty God and be privileged to call Him, Abba – Papa.

Father isn’t mad at her because she is divorced, or because she thought she didn’t need Him.  His grace embraces her and as she receives it, she changes.  She is discovering that she is from another place.  This world is not her home.  She is an alien.  Her citizenship is now in heaven.  Her new job title is  ambassador of heaven.  Of course, she doesn’t find this out all at once.

Her dear friend, Lizzie, introduced her to a new family and a new home.  Her pastor, Sam, is her mentor and trusted friend.  She has a purpose and a future.

Confirming Scriptures:

2 Corinthians 12:9
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

Jeremiah 29:11
New American Standard Bible (NASB)
11 For I know the plans that I [a]have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

Malachi 2:10
[ Sin in the Family ] “Do we not all have one father? Has not one God created us? Why do we deal treacherously each against his brother so as to profane the covenant of our fathers?

Ephesians 3:16-19 – 16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.  20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. 21 Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 1:19  19 I also pray that you will understand the incredible greatness of God’s power for us who believe him. This is the same mighty power 20 that raised Christ from the dead and seated him in the place of honor at God’s right hand in the heavenly realms.

Romans 8:11
But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.

1 John 1:3
That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ.

Comments on: "I Am a Child of God" (6)

  1. Clare Watts said:

    God’s miracles are miracles that change lives! They are miracles that bring healing and restoration! They are miracles that bring peace and joy in believing! They are miracles that light up lives and point to Jesus! There is NO other name under heaven whereby we may be saved. Hallelujah! There is no room for pride, only a great humble need for Him and His touch, and an acknowledgement of His Lordship in our lives over every area. He will continue to astound us with His mercy, His grace and His amazing love as we submit and surrender to Him. Troy’s need for God will come when he gets into that “place” where his “cleverness” can’t help him, and he see his need for One who is greater than He is. God has a way of bringing down those who set themselves up as gods, for He hates sharing His glory with others. Satan found that out, and I know that Troy will sooner, or later, have to bow the knew and acknowledge that Jesus Christ IS Lord! Hallelujah! May God’s will be done in him. Amen!

    • Clare Watts said:

      Larry, did Troy make himself very intelligent?….or did His Maker GIFT him with intelligence? How can he be proud of something he never did, but God made him? We are SO proud of our personal achievements, but never stop to realize that NOTHING, NOTHING we can do – even to taking a breath of air, is our own doing! God’s grace alone, His LOVE GIFTED us with even the individual beats that keep our hearts going! – and He can stop that at any moment He so chooses. Scary thought? – all the more reason to thank God in gratitude for what HE has done, and surrender our lives to Him. His plan for our lives is SO much better than ANYTHING that we can think up……and the rewards are eternal. Ours die when we do. Just something for you to think about……….

      • Okay, if you believe that Clare, believe that. Personally I believe in reality, where taking a breath is my doing. I find the idea of everything being work of a supernatural creator far more hideous than reassuring.

  2. Troy just has narcissism. I don’t see why faith should come into his personality.

    • Clare Watts said:

      Larry, narcissism is complete selfishness. Selfishness IS part of our personality. God CAN change that if we will let Him. It is putting one’s self on the throne where God intended that He should be. It is pride in its worst form. It is self-worship. There is a problem with this that will never bring him peace, or hope, or fulfillment – ever, because the Creator never made us to worship our selves. He made us to glorify Him. Who is greater, the maker of the Ford car Henry Ford, or the car? We were made by God to depend on Him for ALL our needs, but right from the rebellion in heaven when Satan became the first narcissist, came up against God and got thrown out of heaven, man has been doing the same thing, and will receive the same “reward”. God (our Creator) made it clear that there is only One God – Himself, and we are commanded to love HIM with ALL of our hearts, souls, minds and strength, and to love our neighbor as ourselves. That is the complete reverse of narcissism, and the only way that we will receive the peace and joy and hope of eternal life that God gives us. There is no peace, EVER in being a narcissist – NEVER! Our greatest sin is pride, and self just loves to go its own way and puff himself up. Unless we repent of ALL our sinfulness, especially pride, receive God’s forgiveness through His own sacrifice of love for us of the death and resurrection of Jesus His Son, there is no forgiveness, and we face an eternity in hell. Faith in God and His love-gift in Jesus is the ONLY way. God has a way of bringing each of us to that place where we are hemmed in and there is no man to help us, especially ourselves, and where we have to cry out to our loving Maker to repair the mess that we ourselves have made. I thank and praise Him that He always hears our cry and loves us that much that He will always respond, and heal that which WE broke when we left His factory. He alone knows us as nobody else does – even ourselves. Bless you, Larry…….God loves you JUST as much as He loves Kathy, Joe, me….all of us, and all He wants from us is OUR love and commitment to Him instead of “self”.

      • Thanks for your comment and your response. With all due respect, belief in God and Jesus isn’t the only way to become selfless. There are secular means by which personality transformations, from narcissism to kindness and selflessness, can easily take place. Thanks for your reply though.

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