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Trust is the Word

The word of the day is Trust.  I have been learning what is means.  Learning to tru

For years I have known the Scripture, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”  As a matter of fact, it is my life verse.  The Lord knew that trust would be a challenge for me as I always try to figure things out.

I want to solve problems and help others with their problems.One of the issues with
helping other is that most of the time they don’t want help – they just want you to listen.  The issue with trying to solve my own problems is that often I just mess things up worse than they were before.

Which brings me to the word Trust.  God made it pretty clear that He wants me to trust Him and not myself.  So then, why is it so difficult to do it?  I have pondered this and I think it is rooted in pride.  This is sad because it begs the question “What do I have to be proud of?”  Did I create the world or set the stars in place?  I am beginning to sound like the book of Job.

Why do I think I can do things without trusting in God?

When I broke my hip, I knew I would be healed, but then I wasn’t.  Why was that?  Was God unable to heal me?  No, I knew he already had done it several times.  I sat for two hours and begged for God to heal me.  Later I was reminded of the Scripture, “I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor his seed begging bread.  The operative word here was begging.  I begged and I was afraid.  Fear trumps faith every time.

missing outAfter going to the hospital, meeting the doctors, being operated on and missing Christmas, I had time to think.  I knew that I had missed the miracle but that I was being healed.  The healing wasn’t caused by the docs, the nurses, the rehab people – it was caused by God.  He is the healer.

I learned that it is important to trust God at all times and not give into fear.  Doctors say things about your health that you can choose to agree with or turn to the only Healer and trust Him.  He may send you to a doc. I  know that people sometimes don’t get healed, like my husband, and I don’t pretend to know why, but I know that my desire is to put my trust in God.

Pastor said something the other day that grabbed me.  God is really happy when you trust Him.  I looked it up and there are many Scriptures that say He delights in us.  I want to trust Him so much that He delights in me.

As to my hip, God is almost finished putting me back together.  I walk without a cane almost all the time, unless I am going to the mall or taking a longer walk.  Ifigure it ou feel good as long as I don’t sit too long.  I think that means I am to be up and around and not just vegging.

I am pondering the word Trust.  I want it to be so present in my mind that when I try to figure something out without going to  God first, I will be convicted and even more so, if I try to meddle in someone else’s issues.

Psalm 5:11-12 The Message (MSG)

11-12 But you’ll welcome us with open arms
    when we run for cover to you.
Let the party last all night!
    Stand guard over our celebration.
You are famous, God, for welcoming God-seekers,
    for decking us out in delight.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aside

Friendship

FRIENDSHIP

Lately I have been pondering about friendships and relationships in general.  What makes a friend?  What is the difference between a friend and an acquaintance?  What if I am a friend to them, but they are not to me?    When one marries another, there is an expectation of permanence so why the divorce rate?  Why do relationships end?

Definition of FRIEND in the Webster’s:

1a : one attached to another by affection or esteem

1b:  acquaintance

2a : one that is not hostile

2b : one that is of the same nation, party, or group

3 : one that favors or promotes something (as a charity)

4 : a favored companion

There were more definitions, but these were the important ones.  I noticed that there is nothing there about the length and duration of the relationship.  It is my experience that some of the some relationships are forever and some are only for a season.

I know that there have been times in my life when I have wounded and offended a valued friend.  Often they have forgiven me, but the trust was destroyed and the relationship was damaged and never quite the same.  I find that I am still saddened by my actions.
I love this quote that I found in the comments at Webster’s:
“A friend is someone who is there through the good as well as the bad. A friend understands a point of view while disagreeing with it. A friend remains a friend through adversity. A friend takes the time to listen despite a lack of interest. The next time someone deletes you as a “friend”, ask yourself, were they really a friend?”
We all desire healthy intimacy with our friends and our spouse, but often the thought of letting down the wall terrifies us.  What if we let that one in and we are wounded?  What if we don’t?
I wrote a poem years ago after my divorce from my husband of eleven years.  The first lines are:  “The barriers between us are all carefully maintained.
                   They are nurtured by guilt, fear, tears and pain.
                   We hold ourselves off at a distance insulated and protected,
                    Unable to make a commitment out of fear of being rejected.
                   And the armour imprisons the wearer instead of making him free . “.
There is more, but you get the idea.
Scripture says that there is One who sticks closer than a brother.  I am privileged to know that One.  When He lives in my relationships, the loyalty and the trust level are much higher.  When the wound is from a fellow who is on the same path, I must trust in the One who created us all.
I wonder if true friendship and relationship are even possible apart from knowing Jesus and the Father?  I am in awe that I can now be wounded by a close companion and walk in peace recognizing that they are not my enemy but one who is struggling to do His will.  For me, I have determined that I will be a friend and cover another’s offenses.  I, too, will be wary if the door they closed opens again but I will receive them..

To conclude this, I choose to love those I have wounded and those who have wounded me.  I choose to live in peace with betrayal.  It is okay to hurt me.  I forgive and release tthe offender and I choose to walk in freedom.  Thank you Father God for your amazing peace and love.
Related Sites:
What to do when friendship breaks down. http://www.whenfriendshiphurts.com/blog/
Scripture References:
Proverbs 17:17, 18:24, 27:9
Psalm 41:9
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